What is ours alone

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author's note:

Before I start this article, I would like to tell you all that this book will be divided into parts and all. This is a topic I kind of got interested in recently.

So it all started a few months ago when I was in 7th grade. This was originally meant to be a fantasy book, I had created the whole plot, culture, music, language, religion, cuisine, topograph and everything. It is a psychological theory I basically created for myself. a thought-form. Some things I’d like to put up before writing it down are

It is an opinionated philosophy. i dont have a degree, I am just a kid in high school, I have no experience whatsoever, and it's just a draft.
English is not my first language, and sometimes the words or terms escape me.
It is based on my lifestyle, but could still be someone else’s.
i hope yu can point out my mistakes in it
This work is solely mine and not to be taken from me

I hope you will enjoy whatever I write

part 1, the “I”

When I speak of ego, I simply mean a coexistential place in the mind. What I like to call the mauri. So, for instance, I have two sides(three), one is the heart and the other the brain, and another is me or I (myself). I always think of the heart wearing pastels and whites and laces while the brain wears bold or dark colours, and I am out of the human conception since I practically play god in my own mind. Now, what you think about what to think and how to think doesn’t matter. It’s like a dual personality, or how I like to call it the Tulpa. It’s also flexible in your mind. You don't need to make your own characters or humanoid figures. It could also be a yin and yang. Even if you cannot make it, it's simply how you and your brain make yourself comprehend an idea or thought or decision or anything, for instance, how you think the movie went, how you perceive its characters and what you think about it. The brain thinks like a cynical manipulator (in a good way) while the heart does vice versa. The brain is the lie, the heart is the truth. The brain thinks of intelligence or lust, pride, anger, and the other sceptical emotions, while the heart thinks of charity, chastity, kindness, or rage. Why I add rage is because rage is different from anger. Rage is something that applies when someone has crossed their boundary, or a mass injustice is being committed. Anger is when you have a limited amount of disappointment or unsatisfactory ramifications. Wrath is also different in its term. Now, the marri defines how the person actually is. The marri can have three different stages (four if possible).

1). The Marri has the brain disrupt but heart wide: by this term, the marri is made up of two different amounts, the heart carrying the majority of the body while the brain carries a lesser amount. This marri can be seen in saints, supernatural beings or even good humans. This can be seen as an egalitarian marri.

2). The marri has the heart disrupted but the brain wide: this can be found within narcissists, dictators, devils and other humans. These people engross themselves in practising hedonistic deeds and lustful sins to a vast extent, specifically, harmful acts on others or negligence.

3). The marri has the heart clashing with the brain and the brain clashing with the heart: these are mostly normal human beings (irrespective of strong marri or weak), since they all have different will or hope.

The marri can never stay like, if it does, you don't exist, or maybe you do.

The brain, as said in a retrospective, may seem bad, but it is actually an important factor of the marri, just like the heart. It is responsible for the cognitive functioning and helping you, the god of the marri, give your verdict. It helps in the understanding of how a situation is to be handled. It raises significant doubts or ideas about anything, but it doesn't speak the truth. If you remove the heart, the brain dies; if you remove the brain, the heart may die, and the marri simply cannot exist, nor will you.

The marri is responsible for making your dreams, fantasies, goals, foresight, and decision-making or even in mental health.

Dreams

In the hour of sleep and wake, your Marri functions randomly, mixing things and experimenting with new realities by using some pigments of imagination from the mind, leading to wild dreams or even wet dreams, wild dreams happen when you have been stuck with a “permanent wall”, this is the so called writer’s block or any kind of obsession or exhaustion which can be recovered by other means, but the marri helps you overcome those permanent walls through dreams which shape your out growth and inner cognitive abilities, breaking that permanent wall. This leads to inspiration, encouragement and other positive outcomes.

Wet dreams are the escapism from doubt about your crush or suitor, whether you think he is in affinity with you or not. So, the marri as the protector of mental health and well-being, makes vivid dreams to make you less mentally broken, being mentally broken leads directly to a permanent wall in your mind, which leads you through depression, anxiety, burnouts or even suicide. But it depends on whether your marri is strong or not. So, in wet dreams, the marri creates a display of affection, but by affection, it needs to create a display of high intimacy. which is identified by the marri as sexual intercourse. Sometimes, the marri creates the display with someone you love platonically, which leads to a malfunction.

fantasies

The marri also helps create your fake scenarios or daydreams via the indirect help of dreams. your marri focusses into making a narrative dream in the living state, called a daydream, to help you get inspired, productive, or encouraged, even as escapism, during your positive mood. Sometimes, the stories turn vivid or distinct. it further leads to intricate elaborated details in the dream as if it were a different reality. It could be a name, date, birthday, place, body feature, traits and many others. It's also known as maladaptive daydreaming. It turns into a sort of escapism from reality, your yearning to be noticed by your crush or finding love or turning into an important figure or even perhaps something you never experienced in this lifetime but yearned to.

goals

The marri goes through these three things, or after watching something, something instantly reacts to it because your obsessions and ambitions are known by the marri, so it makes you find the correct or suitable goals set to your mindset, mentality or surroundings. These later help you find your path in life, sometimes having backups. Although the heart may clash with the brain, your goals are permissible by both. Sometimes you may stress out, so the marri helps you take the stress out on the basis of the brain, heart and strength.

decision making

the marri is the mother pillar of making progress. It uses ethical ideas and moral distinctions or innovation to help make choices. Sometimes you may try convincing an individual to do or believe something, or to understand, your brain helps manipulate those thoughts with the help of convincing morals to make them practically side with you. the basic vulnerability is your way of articulating your sentences.

foresight

Foresight is sensible in many marris but very prominent in strong ones. empaths, mediums or even you or I might have a strong sixth sense which may also lead to seeing thigns which are not supposed to be eminent, or a form of psychic ability.

We can see some saints or divine beings have a higher radiance or intellectualism than ours, their marri is basically strong enough to weave ours or even manipulate us. they get strong via the basis of strict discipline or any mental interference.

The Darkness

A marri turns to harmful, inappropriate, negligible, sinful, nihilist or suicidal acts because of The darkness. The body is actually never dark, thats why the human body glows very faintly under the dark, or reflects light, since we basically have substances in our physical body which are relatively close to stardust. Darkness can’t exist within light or the brightness, so there’s always a clash between the two. When affected by the darkness, we can see the following symptoms and are expressed as follows:

When darkness keeps winning and the light loses

The victim is actually at fault in this. Because of this, the body of the victim slowly starts turning into a state where the victim slowly degenerates into unethical morals even if it conflicts with their marri. The heart and brain try their best to negotiate but fail, darkness expands, leaving the inner realm in shambles. After long periods of time. The human becomes a puppet of the darkness leading to spiritual decay, eccentric vulnerability. At this stage, the victim resorts to self harm, which leads to a desecrated marri. The marri leaves but the brain and heart remain, they try their best through any means to abolish the darkness. this stage may go away through human interaction, since a marri can interact more with another marri. Any kind of verbal, physical, mental or even sporitual abuse is extremely forbidden during this clash.

negativity makes the darkness grow, it will always reside in humans, not (mostly) animals, since humans have a different will, intelligence, humour or hope rather than that of other species. Humans are primate and darkness only infiltrates primate beings.

When light keeps winning and darkness loses

in this progress, the victim is the sole survivor and practices meditations and affirmations or even listening to music. The marri’s strength significantly restores while listening to musi or affirmations. If the person’s marri is strong or adamant. darkness slows down and extinguishes.

Emotions

The human emotions are outcomes of your verdicts, for instance, if we see something controversial or hear something controversial, it leads to:

1. Anger

the marri has indicated, the controversy, as unethical or vindictive, portraying a disappointment or disagreement.

2. laughing or humour

The controversy has been identified (by the marri) as sarcasm or a stereotypical comedy.

3. Confusion

The marri sometimes cannot comprehend the controversy.

As I said, rage, anger and wrath are totally different.

Anger

Anger can be classified as a limited sense of strong disagreement or disappointment. It lasts for only a limited period.

Rage

Rage on the other hand, is the reaction of strong disagreement of wide injustice or negligence. Rage is essential for a human being, since it sets boundaries on human abuse, both physically or mentally. It’s a protest against harm and often leads to a strong confrontation.

Wrath

This is an episode of a feral, barbaric rage. It’s a more strong and powerful confrontation, leading to a seizure-like ramification such as physical harm, verbal fatalities from screaming or shouting or violent verbal attacks.

Rage and wrath last longer than anger.

Happiness, contentment and ecstasy also have different terms.

keeping all of this in mind. the marri is not just an imaginary friend. It’s your own trusted advisor. marri is not just thinking, It’s a whole new being inside you and I