THE FUSE

What do u call it when u realize something that you have been avoiding for so long is in fact the thing you thought it was whenever your subconscious mind started telling u maybe you are wrong? What would that moment in realization be called? That moment sucks, makes u feel so smalland belittled, and even disrespected? It Robb’s of u of all of your worth and sometimes ur sense of worth! The fact that u were right the whole time and still chose to let it slide or hide all because if u acknowledged it and the other person did too, then you’d have to do something to prevent it or fix it and that would

Require a divorce…..

It would mean that not all relationships are roses and wildflowers! It would require detachment from someone she didn’t want to live without, or knew how too for that matter! She knew everytime he lied to her face like she wasn’t shit to him, she knew everytime he withdrew from her to gain his own pleasure in a way that labeled him unfaithful! Every loop we completed and every cycle we went through and came back to just to rego through that same endless cycle untill one day someone had enough. And that same person decided that they wanted to be alone, then craved piece like the they craved a Luis Vuitton bag and a pair of Prada shoes 👠! No closure, no arguments, and definitely no explanations. It was over, it had been the whole time… she was taking back her worth reclaiming that crown! 👑. And

That’sexactly when it hit her, the realization that this had been happening and this was over long ago! She keep turning a blind eye to her husbands bullshit laying the grounds for him to disrespect and devalue her and there home! Home was not where his heart was and it had always been that way, she just failed to relize it. She blocked it out most days where does she go from here she dosent know, hell anywhere looks better then where she is or has been! She just needs peace like the shirt on her back and she needs softness and gentleness and space to heal and find out who she is again! It will all get better and this will pass!

I am she and she is me!!!!

TBC…..