I still Suffocate, even when there is Air All around.

I still Suffocate, even when there is Air All around.

Have you Ever felt suffocation even without Grabbing the throat hard? Even when there is Plenty of Oxygen all Around?

I felt it, and not being able to find a right Medicine because the illness is banded into a loop of thousands of entangled Threads by which I couldn’t get my Doctor to write a prescription for me.

4 Walls, healthy Food, Clean Water, Neat Clothes, Access to Education, WiFi, and a family is More than Enough for a happy Life. Right? But what about : Emotional unavailability, Toxicity, Orthodoxicy, Patriarchy and Dominance is an Extra Gift present like a 50/50 offer you got in a sale.

Where Words means nothing and Action seen as Drama how am I supposed to show what I wants to do. Should I push myself for the talks where I know the outcome already ? should I Drag my desire to sit down and Listen while saying nothing to act like Everything is All right ? or Should I be comfortable with people whose Presence even makes me sit up or leave the room?

Have you ever thought what if the Person with the most venomous toungue being able to drink their words, are they likely to breathe ? How Good it would be if there is nothing like “Do Good get Good" but “Do bad and get it instantly” exist. Where one intentional hurt cost even more as a lesson. But a lesson that must be stuck in the head through out the life.

How does that Girl felt who is continuously failing at Everything and when she comes back home to get peace or comfort, it only gets worse and then her Prayer Mat and Outsiders becomes the best Companion. Why does she like to Share when there is a lot to say but she doesn’t know how to. So she left with Heartbeats running like roller-coaster and a thudding chest … and yeah a little breathlessness only and that’s fine because she doesn’t eat well. Right ??

Well.. The problem is not that Iam suffering, not because I didn’t get understood, not even because I feel hurt by my own people. The problem is the Pathetic oppression over me and there Step by step guide on how to swim while Iam Drowning.

As a 16 year old Teenager, I believe that I deserve Privacy and trust over Snatching my Phone and going through it after Every Argument. Freedom to chose my comfort over others choices , to Express myself, to Explain my view, to breathe freely, to earn, to run, to talk, to walk, to go Outside, to learn how to ride just a scooty instead of being asked a series of question and becoming a topic of Criticism.

May I get a life to live, rather than Survive.

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Thank you kind soul for reading this Article till the End. It matters a lot to me that you came here after reading every line. This Article is written as an Escapism for me, because Writing is a way for me to put down the burden off my shoulders. There is so much happening here and there with Everyone and I believe that We all should Understand others beyond the mask they wore Everyday.